I force myself to laugh wen dey make jokes..I force myself to do dat i've alwaes do..
But every hour, minutes, seconds..He's de one appear in my mind..
I'm craving to talk and jokes with him..But i dunno of he still mad at me..
He's happy fer sulking and not talking to me fer lyke 2 month plus..
He's happy fer making me jealous..I didn't knew he was lyke dat..really..
Wen i was in the lab, He sat infront of me.. Den he shift behind me sat with Effa..
He was lyke joking² with her..de spot where i was dreaming about us before in de lab too..
De part i've stop dreaming wen Nasir told Effa:
"Eh, Effa aku suke klau kau stead dgn Naazrul.."
"Asl kau tanak stead dgn Naazrul?"
Effa replied:
"Aku tanak uh.. Aku suke wan.."
Nasir:
"Aku tak suke uh org laen jadi kakak ipar aku..Aku suke kau jadi kakak ipar aku.."
I didn't knoe how Naazrul reaction was, at dat tyme..Tell me,Won't u get mad wen he says dat infront of u??!
How i felt dat tyme was sad and angry..And i really felt lyke he dun love me animore..
*Nasir once told me dat Naazrul won't ask fer break-up but if he dun lyke dat gurl animore, he gonna make de gurl angry,jealous or watsoeve it is..
Den i told sut, I really want to ask fer break-up..She advice me again not to do it and better be patience..
How am i supposed to be patience wen he tiny dun even care about me..And his "tgok dulu la mcm mane.." was lyke more den 3 weeks..Till now he did not msg me at all..
Ouh ya..His phone got CONFISICATED by her mum..coz his bill was so high to de sky..tsk..tsk.tsk..
Fer saying de truth i cried in Mother tounge class and after skool..But no one saw onli Sut and dyna..I really can't take it after Nasir says dat..If he do angry with me..can he jus do sumtin else rather den talking about him..
Can u stop being selfish??
Kau takya nk bangge psl tak bbual dgn aku fer 2months(bkn 3months)..
Aku ade matair mcm takde matair..
Kau nmpak aku..mane senyoman kau yg kau slalu tnjjok aku??
mate kau pandang ke arah mane bile kau nmpak aku?
Where de promises dat u've promise me at de esplanade?
kau sndiri ckp.. "k.Aku janji aku carikkan kau laki yg bleh setia smpai bile²"
I tot it was u..So i chose u..
But wat i've got??
tak bbual ngan kau berbulan²..
Den aku rase i've been wasting my EX accepting u as my partner..
Aku tak tau ape motive adek kau bbual ngan effa gitu..?
If u really dun lyke me animore..
Den sori fer saying..I will ask fer break-up..
Deres no time fer me to move dis realtionship wen i love him..
But yet he doesn't.
(i hope it's not true..)
pls lah Naazrul..I beg u pls talk to me as before..
Fer all my wishes dis is wat i really want from u..
And i really hope dis wishes wud really come true..
I think i shud end here coz my keyboard is full of tears.. And i'm gonna wipe it now..